We will rot like Flowers ☯ ☯ ☯

It has occurred to me that my clothing opinions seemed to have changed since... last year, so it's only obvious to make a new selection of beautiful things :D
 
Enjoy!

Just my favourite pictures, is all. If you wanna save, save away. I'm not the artist- i'm just a collector.
 
So yeah, you can try and read into this collection if you like- try and see the "me" in it and ponder over what does everything mean!?
But I ask politely not to.
 
Cheers

I FINAAALLY got all the old stuff from my old laptop onto the notebook :3 This now includes my music, hallelujah!
 
It would appear that I have not been active since... freakin' Easter- Which is true! You might have guess from above, but my deceiving baby broke-down, leaving me computer less.... for a while {I'm not counting kind lendings!}
 
But yeah, i'm FINAAALLY sorted :) Es gud.

{This has deleted once, and i nearly cried.. so gimme a mo to chill my beans}
 
Besides this, i've had sucha good day- like, nothing really happened, but it's been nice.
Right now i'm just lying in bed like a slob (minus the food, bu-huu), no homework to do and just listening to disney soundtracks.. Like y'know, the Disney before arooound, the 2000's.
LUUUURVE IT.
 
I kinda can't wait 'till tomorrow- for Performing arts... because I get to work on Pocahontas, and after spending like, 2 hours on writing up the scripts i'm reaally excited to try it out ^_^
 

Anyway, I have this tag from @cds-and-stilettos, and it's actually quite good! Like, there's some pretty new questions :D
 

1. You're on a safari, sightseeing and learning of this new culture, in an African savanna. You park underneath a tree to get a closer look at a boa in a tree--until you hear a disturbed growl from just feet away. A lion, crouched in a stance for attack, seems to glare at you with questioning eyes. What do you do?
 
Weell, i'd invite him over and he'll fall into my trap of love & happiness. Then we'd be besties4ever and he'd come live with me and he could sleep at the foot of my bed.

2. Have you ever written a story?
Short ones, yup!

3. How do you feel about sci-fi shows/books?
Not very passionate.. if, like, a tiny fraction.

4. Ring. Ring. Ring. "God f u c k in--" you rub your eyes as you're yanked from slumber by the sound of your cell phone, reaching for it with an annoyed desire for the noise to /just stop/. "Hello?" you groan.

"(insert your name)? This is the president of the United States. We need your help."

Why do you think Obama called you?
 
To bake his face into a cake. Duh.
 
5. Ever watched Glee?
A few times

6. Ever read fanfiction?
A couple, yis yis

7. What are your feelings on abortion?
Ohh dear; i could fight for a while about this- It is entirely a woman's choice about what happens inside her damn body. And no one, NO ONE should have a right to make her or judge what she decides to do with that body of hers, because she'll have to deal with the consequenes.. I view it better to, y'know.. If the parent was not capable/will not look after the child then it's better off this way, rather than the child coming into the world and thrown into an orphanage, or in an abusive home.

8. Where's the furthest you've ever traveled from your current home?
Well.. from HERE, probably Poland :P
 
9. What genre of music could you see yourself never ever ever listening to?
Rap or "chart music"

10. Describe your family in one word.
Bi-polar.

11. When was the last time you jumped on your bed?
March 31st. I remember because I had to get wrapping paper for my boyfriend's present and that paper was in my parent's closet, in their room. And to get it I had to stand on the bed, henceforth I jumped on it.
 
PART DOS

1. Thought on Miley Cyrus' style?
Don't care, tbh.

2. What do you usually have for breakfast?
Cereal whoop-whoop!

3. Aren't you obsessed with iPhone cases? If so, which is your favorite?
Umm no

4. Favorite clothing brand?
Don't care... but i always seem to go into New Look & H&M :/

5. Lana del Rey or Marina and the Diamonds?
Nana

6. Do you like any musical artists from your country?
Considering I really don't know of many, meh?

7. Do you live in the city?
Nope

8. Do you prefer buying clothes in famous clothing brands or unknown ones?
Unknown.

9. Do you believe in the saying that ''Money is not the key to happiness''?
Well it won't exactly make you unhappy, but money is not essential to living happily. No.
 
10. Do you smoke?
Depends on what. lolololol nope.
 
TAGS:
@dreamingausten @enotia @day-dreaming-is-a-hobby @dancing-at-her-funeral @i-eat-zombies69 @i-talk-to-trees :)

I knew it was kinda gonna lead up into this- like, d'you know when you feel a little seed of illness planted inside your body, and it won't happen immediately but eventually... eventually you'll have that panic-attack feeling?
 
Yeh well, i've had that since about sunday afternoon.
 
I feel.. hopeless, depressed really. But the worst is my heart, oh my my...
It feels like.. like it's clenched inside, being squeezed by a tight grip- it's as if the ventricles have a strike going on, maybe from too much pressure.
 

This set, like most nowadays, has it's distinctive purpose; for me to be able to winge, or b!tch or express any kind of pain or happiness. (so I'm not ignoring all the survey tags, but i kinda of am.. sorry.)
I've seen a lot of people be inspired recently- to do well; in school or work or hobbies, just, general motivation in life.
I've had frank talks with people about their lives... and trying to help them reach a safe-zone, i've been forced to think about myself.
 
And to be damn right f u c k i n g honest, i'm more confused & scared than I have been in a while.
I feel useless, and just, unsucsesful. Y'know chores? How everyone avoids them because they're a drag but HAVE to be faced on..
 
I feel like my life is a chore.
Like, I can't really enjoy myself and the current momeny, although I say I do to all the adults, that I just don't want to think about the future too much... but recently it's been like that's all I can manage to do.
And it's really disheartning, because i'm so fuc king lost.
 

I really don't know if the baking's going to work anymore... i'm good in theory, but is theory going to support me in the future?
I mean, didn't John Green say "The future is composed of nows" and that would go to say that the decisions I make now- what to do with my damn time, what I think, will impact my life.
 

And right now, I just feel like I'm f u c k i n g wasting away.
All I can manage to do is eat, listen to the same comfortable music and break stuff. And eat.
And that just... i'm not happy with that.
I feel like i'm just wasting the oxygen.
 

 
And I'm not kidding.. my heart really hurts.

I don't even know, guize. I don't!
I just hope that my entire holidays will not be laptoplesss -.-
 
But right now, you must be asking yourself "But, Michasia.. aren't you on a computer right now?"
Well yes, yes I am! But I'm on my dad's right now. And my father is SO PROTECTIVE over this piece of garbage, it's cray-cray.
 
AND THE KEYBOARD IS DIFFERENT ;(
But yeah guize, at least there's loads of good stuff on TV :)
 
Anyway, I found a 100 truths thingy.. so there it is!
 
1 0 0 TRUTHS.
 
WHAT WAS YOUR:
1. Last beverage: milky tea
2. Last phone call: My mum, undoubtfully!
3. Last text message: "As am I! It's the best thing." from my boyfriend.
4. Last song you listened to: Oh darling The Beatles.
5. Last time you cried: Nearly yesterday! .. my mum yelled at me..
 
HAVE YOU EVER:
6. Dated someone: Yeah man
7. Been cheated on: I'd hope not!
8. Kissed someone & regretted it: nope
9. Lost someone special: well.. i suppose not. When i "lost someone" it' usually been for the better
10. Been depressed: Has anyone ever not felt a bit blue?
11. Been drunk and threw up: Nope! I can handle my booze.
12. LIST THREE FAVORITE COLORS: Orange, yellow, green
 
THIS YEAR HAVE YOU:
15. Made a new friend: I guess not! But i've developed freiendship :)
16. Fallen out of love: *shakes head*
17. Laughed until you cried: Yeup!
18. Met someone who changed you: ... Yes, actually!
19. Found out who your true friends were: why not, sure.
20. Found out someone was talking about you: Nope!
21. Kissed anyone on your friend's list: ... noo?
22. How many people on your friends list do you know in real life: about.. 3! :D
23. How many kids do you want: 3 max, if and when I do.
24. Do you have any pets: 1 puppy-dog. He so cute.
25. Do you want to change your name: I dunno! I remember i really used to, but now if the chace was given, i don't think i would, really.
26. What did you do for your last birthday: Group sleepover with all my best friends :D T'was class.
27. What time did you wake up today: 11 :'( Iam soo tired!
28. What were you doing at midnight last night: Having a bath, actually :) and conteplating weather i should stay awake, for the craic.
29. Name something you CANNOT wait for: dinner.
30. Last time you saw your Mother: an hour ago? She's having her fiesta!
31. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life: Nothing. WAIT. Actually, i want a double-bed real bad!
32. What are you listening to right now: Top Gear
33. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom: Yeah :D He was so sweet.
34. Who's getting on your nerves right now: THE KEYPAD -__-
35. Most visited webpage: facybook
36. Whats your real name: Michalina
37. Nicknames: misia, misha, michasia, tommy, sherlock.. yeah, whatever!
38. Relationship Status: In a relationship.
39. Zodiac sign: pices ;)
40. Male or female: yis i'm a female..
41. Primary School: F u c ken terrible.
42. Secondary School: Yeah I like it :)
43. High school/college: look to the last number silly
44. Hair color: black-y brown -.- NOT FOR LONG.
45. Long or short: Short. SO DAMN SHORT D:
46. Height: 5"3
47. Do you have a crush on someone: All da way man.
48. What do you like about yourself: My feet & ears.
49. Piercings: 4 in my ears
50. Tattoos: I think i'll defnitely get one! (or a few)
51. Righty or lefty: right, man
 
FIRSTS:
52. First surgery: Never D:
53. First piercing: ears.. soo many times.
54. First best friend: Ania :) She was quite sweet.
55. First sport you joined: SPORT!? ... I did Polish folk dancing when i still lived in Poland :P
56. First vacation: god knows.
58. First pair of trainers: Yes.
 
RIGHT NOW:
59. Eating: No :'(
60. Drinking: No.. but i would like to be.
61. I'm about to: Aww about my god. WOAH MY GOD SOOO CUTE
62. Listening to: Advertisements
63. What time is it: 15:56, at the current moment.
 
YOUR FUTURE:
64. Want kids: *shrugs* sure
65. Get married: yeah :)
66. Career: baker... i'm not really, good at much else.
 
WHICH IS BETTER:
67. Lips or eyes: Well.. if a person didn't have lips, it'd be kinda weird and.. hard to comunicate. Ditto with eyes. So er, both!
68. Hugs or kisses: BOTH :D But cuddles are claaass.
69. Shorter or taller: Taller... because they're easier to spot with my poor sight.
70. Older or Younger: older, just by my age right now.
71. Romantic or spontaneous: Isn't that slightly the same thing
72. Nice stomach or nice arms: wut
73. Sensitive or loud: Sensitive, but like.. the guy shouldn't not speak, y'know?
74. Hook-up or relationship: relationships!
75: Stolen anything: Yep :/ i stole a doll from my cousin 'cuz she didn't wanna play with me with it :/
76. Kissed a stranger: nope
77. Drank hard liquor: not yet!
78. Lost glasses/contacts: Yes..
80. Broken someone's heart: HAH. No.
82. Been arrested: nah
83. Turned someone down: lolno i'm not that popular
84. Cried when someone died: In movies & books, yeah.
85. Fallen for a friend: haha yeah, you can put it like that!
 
DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
86. Yourself: ish.
87. Miracles: meh..
88. Love at first sight: yeah :D
89. Heaven: i don't know
90. Santa Claus: i'm not allowed to :(
91. Kiss on the first date: pfft, each to their own!
92. Angels: no..
93: Who are you behind the anon: Say waat?
94. Had more than 1 girlfriend/boyfriend at a time: that's called cheating.. or polymophony.
95. Did you sing today: Ah, not today! I am very tired, and too grumpy to sing.
96. Ever cheated on somebody: nah
97. If you could go back in time, how far would you go: Not too far, i'd say D: I dunno, the 60's seem kinda cool.
98. The moment you would choose to re-live: Erm.. I have no damn idea, cub.
99. Are you afraid of falling in love: Hahah, no!
100. Are you afraid of posting this as 100 truths: of course not... it wasn't particularly deep, like.
 
SO THERE IT WAS.. I will not be tagging, as this is so damn long and... well, y'know. Whatever :P
****
 

ANYWHOS, hope you had a very nice celebration of spring! and enjoy your break {if you're lucky enough to get it}

I won't lie. This set is a fail, and it's only purpose it to answer 2 survies :/ ...
 
I feel the artist inside my groaning in agony over my decision of ....stuff..
 
But yeah! Here's the one for the very nice @dreamingausten :D
 
1. How do you feel right now?
Tired. Just, tired. But so relieved that woahmygod you have no idea.

2. What have you learned today?
That my school never, nor will ever give us the head-ups before a photographer comes into school.

3. When you were a little kid, what did you want to be when you grew up?
A naked country singer... don't ask.
 
4. If someone asked you to give them a random piece of advice, what would you say?
Don't eat so much- 'cuz then there's not enough nice things left to eat through-out the week :'(

5. Who’s your best / closest friend?
My wee school group :p There's Megan, Lawrence, William, Niamh & Ryan. But I'm also friendly with Nicole, Orla & Kelly.
But y'know, aidan's pretty important like.

6. Would you kill an innocent person if you thought it might mean saving a dozen other people?
I believe this was asked once before, and like last time, I will say that the lives of others should never be placed into anyone's hands. So I guess not.

 
7. What’s your favourite part about today so far?
The part where I will sleep. Derp.

8. What’s your favourite joke?
What's a bear's favourite kinda cheese?
 
ComeonBEAR.
 
..y'know, like, camembert?
The cheese? Really nice?
 
No?
 
Well SCREW YOU TOO.
 
9. What’s one of the strangest things you’ve ever done?
Like, slipped on mud in a skirt and got shite all over my bum. And had to stay in school all day after that -.-
 
10. If you could learn one random skill, what would you learn?
How to be miss P.E and diss people without them knowing.

11. What's the best time and the worst time in your life so far?
Too deep of a question for 12 o'clock at night, man.
 

NEXT SURVEEEY, this time from @enotia :)
Basically, she gave me 11 questions to answer, and when I tag you, you have the answer the 11 that I post. Get it? :)
 
1) Any nicknames? Name a couple.
Michasia. Misia. Misha. Tommy. Sherlock. Crabstick, Pole. I'm preetty sure i've got some more, but who cares!
 
2) What's the coolest thing you own?
Probably my mid-calf docs. Yeah.. I'm sad.
 
3) What's your favourite month?
DECEMBER :D
 
4) Who's your icon?
My face. Gotta change it soon actually.. i don't like that picture no more ;/
 
5) Who is the most important person in your life?
Aidan
 
6) List some adjectives you'd like people to use to describe you.
Stupid. Weird. "Individual"
 
7) Do you have any regrets?
Nada.
 
Well, actually, not getting up to get a piece of camembert.. which i will do as soon as i'm finished, i hope :D
 
8) Happiest moment of your life?
I dunno.. but i remember the subtle break of my life turning from miserable to a point where I was actually happy.. It was all because of being pals with megan, really.
 
9) Saddest?
I think.. there's too many to really get into.
 
10) Do you believe in love at first sight?
Of course.
 
11) What are the hardest times?
"Ohhhhh... Hard times, come again no more!"
 
My questions:
1) What's your favourite cake flavour?
2) What can you see yourself doing in the future?
3) What's your opinion on marriage in current times?
4) Do you believe in ghosts?
5) What're your favourite movies?
6) Do you die a little on the inside when you see books being made into movies?
7) What's your favourite number, and why.
8) Which religion would you love to be a part of?
9) What're the best things in life?
10) Are you happy?
11) What do you think makes a person significant?
 
TAG LIST:
@i-eat-zombies69 @i-talk-to-trees @wish-it-was-shannon @girl-with-kaleidoscope-eyes @tasmin-in-wonderland @tanzisme
 
Yep, if you hate being tagged & bothered.. you can leave a comment below so I stop being a prick :/ And vice versa, if you wanna become a part of the tagging activities!

There's a lot of things I'd like to say, but many i'd like to keep private.
 
I don't know why I want to keep these things private, maybe i just don't know how i feel really. Maybe I don't want to think about anything that could have bad, real bad outcomes.
 
But still, i'm happy so far. So what else could I want?
 
Oh, minus the huge binge eating sessions .____. WHAT'S WRONG WITH ME!? Like, if i was puking it back up i'd be better, but i'm not.
I just eat
and eat
and EAT
and something is very, very wrong D: I don't wanna keep eating, but i feel if i eat all the nice food NOW, then i won't be able to eat it later.. so that makes it okay, right? :(
 
But anyways, I've got 2 tags to do! So here we go-
This one's from @enotia
 
Zero - Who was your last text from?
Lawrence, I think.. Also, what kinda survey starts at "0"? I like it, but don't!

One - What/who is your icon?
Ehh... Engineers, and physicians. Yep. So much respect for those guys it makes me feel sick I don't have the mental capacity to think of the stuff they do.

Two- Your relationship status?
Not a single pringle. FOR NOW, BUAHAHA.
Jk aidan, love you<3

Three - Have you ever lost a close friend?
Who hasn't, like?

Four - What is your current mood?
Tired, but hyper-active. It's kinda a "I just baked" high.

Five - What’s your brother(s)/sister(s)names?
Aleksandra & Maciej.

Six - Where do you wish you were right now?
Aidan's bed.
Or a tent.
In a field.
The kitchen *sobs*

Seven - Have a crazy side?
NO

Eight - Ever had a near death experience?
*shrugs* I'm expecting it anyday, bro.

Nine- Something you do a lot?
Laugh like a complete ass-monkey.

Ten - Angry at anyone?
Tough question

Eleven - What’s stopping you from going for the person you like ?
Oh y'know, the fact that they're in Hollywood, or some sh!t. Wuteve

Twelve - When was the last time you cried?
How should I know?! Happens waaay too often.

Thirteen- What are you really good at ?
Nothing much.

Fourteen - What do you think about when you are falling asleep?
8-bit video games.. and the beatles :/ and how many clothes i own...

Fifteen- What were you doing yesterday at 10pm?
Breathing, b i t c h.

Sixteen - Do you prefer light or dark hair on the opposite sex ?
Dark, por favour.

Seventeen - Who was the last person you talked to on the phone?
Ehh.. Mum!

Eighteen - What is/are your favourite band(s)?
Beatles, Keaton Henson, Dan Mangan, Aidan J., White Stripes, SOAD, Bon Iver, Misfits, Dead Kennedys, ARCTIC MONKEYS. Bright Eyes, too.

Nineteen - What are you doing right now?
This quiz.

Twenty - Who do you trust 100% right now?
*shrugs* s'pose so

Twenty one - Where did you get the shirt you are wearing?
My father's closet... no kidding :/

Twenty two - Heavy metal music?
Yis plz

Twenty three- Who Was the last person you hugged?
My Aidan. And Jake.. but he's a baby, so you kinda have to hug him to keep him up, so i'm not sure that counts :/
 
Twenty four - Is there anything you’re hiding from someone?
My big d!ck from my momma.

Twenty five - Who are you thinking of right now?
Erm... nothing,actually..
 

Okay. Cake.

Twenty six - What should you be doing right now?
Reading. Sleeping.. being useful to myself D:

Twenty seven - What are you listening to?
I am the Walrus. {Fun fact: I can't pronounce ""walrus"}

Twenty eight - You need new jeans. Quick where do you go?
Erm.. this doesn't happen often. New Look?

Twenty nine - Who was the last person who yelled at you?
MEGAN

Thirty - Do you act differently around the person you like?
*shakes head*

Thirty one - What is your eye colour?
Weird as s h i t.

Thirty two - Who was the last person to make you laugh?
how should i know?! Jesus christ.
OH wait, it was Jake-Cake.

Thirty three - Who was the last person to make you angry?
Niamh

Thirty four - Hello Kitty or Dora?
Neither.

Thirty five - Is your hair naturally curly or straight?
Curly.
 
Thirty six - Hug anyone of opposite sex in past 24 hours?
Yis sir.

Thirty seven - One thing you want right now?
Finish this thing.. but like, hug. Hug and eat without gaining fat ;(

Thirty eight - Will you fall in love in the next few months?
More into it, sure!

Thirty nine - What does the 5th text in your inbox say?
My phone is faaar away ;/ I mean, it's like, 30cm away!

Forty - Are you worried about the future?
Nada! Don't think about it ovvverly much.

Forty one - Are you happy with life right now?
I suppose so!

Forty two - Are you currently jealous?
Not right now, but i happen to be a cruel little green monster.

Forty three - Who's your best guy friend?
Aidan. Willium, Lawrence.

Forty four - Do you forgive or forget?
I forgive too easy, and forget too easy. But i don't seem to forget too often, if y'know what i mean!

Forty five - What do you miss the most about elementary school?
F u c king NOTHING. Worst time of my life.

Forty six - Favourite Disney Channel show?
the non-existent one.

Forty seven – Who’s 3 of your best girl friends?
Meggers, Japps and.. yeah, i dunno, really.

Forty Eight - What are you looking forward to?
Easter holidays :D And FRAAAAANCE.
And spending time with aidan. Oh dear, someone slap me :/ Uh, and film night! Should be alright.

Forty nine - Does anyone like you right now?
Not that I'm aware of.

Fifty - Lyrics to the song you’re listening to?
"Turn off your mind, relax and flow down-stream"" Tomorrow Never Knows, Beatles.
 
AND i have another from both @dreamingausten and @enotia but ehhh... i'm lazy :/
TOMORROW! :D
 

Yip, so for now i'll taaag-
@im-hopeless-but-hoping @cds-and-stilettos @miss-chessie-cat @the-misfits @i-talk-to-trees @i-eat-zombies69 :)

I swear to f u c k the day he moves out i'll dance for fuc king days in joy.
What an absolute BA STA RD. No harm, but f u c k help the woman who gets that c u n t.
 
Not only did he SPILL my MOTHER.F.U.C.K.I.N.G. smoothie, the entire litre of it. He smashed the pour-y thing as well. And I didn't even to fu cking try that mango & passion fruit delight because i was fuc king saving it for LATER. In the god DAMN fridge.
 
and then he comes along like a fecking king, opens the fridge and "accidentally" throws it out. What the f u cking f u ck is wrong with the cub? And then he storms into my room, with a f u c king EMPTY vase thing-y and blames it all on me, saying he won't clean up the GOD DAMN mess of smoothie & glass on the floor because he didn't do it.
 
MO THER F U C K I NG C O C K BLOCK IDIOT.
 

I was really, really looking forward to that mother fucking smoothie. I made it myself, like EVERYTHING I F U C K ING HAVE TO DO, and he... gah! I can't even describe him anymore.
 
I do so much for him; cook, clean and take care of his stanky ass and he does all THIS. Well F U C K ME, RIGHT EVERYONE?
 
He better m o v e the hell out, or i swear to f u ck.